I saved a life today...My own....

I have given up smoking and decided to give my lungs some loving. For to long I have puffed away and the effects are already making me like a prune.

For those of you who do smoke, you will all know that its a lot harder than just 'quitting'. The social smoker, who has the odd one when there out with the group. The chain smoker, who has a cigarette in their hand more than anything else.

The list if different types of 'smokers' go on, whatever you want to call yourself. At the end of the day, if you put a cigarette up to your mouth either one a week or once a minute, then you are just a smoker, there is no other name for yourself.

You have to want to quit and be ready to . If you are forced to and don't want to give up, then you have less of a chance of succeeding.

I was told by one of my friends (who quit three weeks ago) to imagine that I am going out on Friday night. I have a shower, put on my favorite creams and perfume. I do my hair and slip into that new expensive dress and give my teeth a nice little bath as well. After all that time and effort, she then tells me to light up a cigarette so that my perfume now becomes the stench of smoke, my clothes reek, and I may as well have used a cigarette as my toothbrush (vivid image isn't it?)

It is only the begining, and it is going to be a long road ahead, but at least I will live a longer life.

I love my lungs

<3 be happy Xo

"I don't know why he keeps treating me like this..."
"I don't know why your still going out with him..."

Yes in many cases i have uttered both sentences. I watch as my friends stay with a boy who I know, and who they also know, will cause their pretty little hearts to smash around their converse shoes.
I have also been the fool who should have listened and who has worn the converse...for almost five years.

So why the sudden rant about this? Why do we want to avoid kicking off the converse, worn day in and day out, with several holes on the sole, symbols of the arguments that you guys have gone through? And instead, slip on a pair of Louboutins.

Okay, sorry for comparing mine and your love relationship to shoes...its a bit straying off the point.

Staying in a relationship because it is safe, comfortable or because even the opposite where you can't leave, is not the right thing to do. More than likely they will not change. This is a fact. Love is not a maybe thing.You should be sure about it. If you hesitate, and doubt the relationship already, then something is not right and you can not keep ignoring it.

Yes, of course you love him, there are so many reason's why you should stay with him and it could work out. The way you have little sayings, the smell of his aftershave, the way he takes all the green skittles out of the packet because they make you sick. Lets just get this, aftershave comes in a bottle and a lot of the population probably wear it. Most couples have little sayings that are established over time when funny occurring incidents take place. And if skittles make you sick, then stop eating them!! There has to be more than this to a relationship. You have to be on the same level. If you can not honestly look at the relationship and be 100% sure you should be there, then put on your heels and walk away.

I thought that things would change. Over the course of many years, I put up with lies, cheating, tears, heartache,  break ups and make ups, giggles, holding hands, secrets and kisses. There is good and bad. But you can only handle it if it is with the right person and you are truly happy.

Guaranteed that someone out there is going to be very happy when you walk into their lives and you chose not to get back with your Ex.

Now, lets not all go dumping our partners because of something small. The above applies to someone out there who reads it. You just may not believe that is it you who it applies to. Follow your gut and instinct and you can't go wrong.

Sure, I wrote the thing and thought that I didn't apply to me for the past five years....

<3 Be happy Xo

It's all about today and tomorrow. That's the way you have to look at it.
Yesterday is gone, forget about it. 
The unknown is lying ahead of us and I just want to dive right into it.


And so blogging begins,, as i try to change my silly ways and live a bit more. As the saying goes "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery"


Going to try and do one thing that scares me every day...hope it inspires....or even if you do the same to me. From the smallest thing to the wildest.


Of course there will also be my almost insane comments, courtesy of my day to day run ins in life 


<3 Be happy Xo